I Dunno: A Blog, I Guess

Woah, is there a lot going on—I hadn’t expected to write an update on my writing for another couple of posts, but I think it’s time.  My edits are officially done, and my book one is formatted and ready to send out to advanced reviewers, and it turns out that my book is going to be coming out a month earlier than expected in November! Lots, and lots of stuff going on.  I’ve been looking for a ton of reviewers to play a numbers game with the amount of reviews I can get when the book comes out—hopefully, it’ll pay off...especially with how long it took to find 100 potential reviewers for my book. It was an exhausting search, let me tell you. Most of the review sites that I looked at clearly hadn’t updated their lists in years . Some bloggers I found hadn’t posted since 2015. For places that are all about helping authors out, you’d think they’d do their due diligence and update their lists at least once a year.  I’m starting to get a little bit nervous about the whole thing:...

I'm a very private person, so this post is going way outside my comfort zone. For those that follow me on Twitter, you might be thinking, "But you totally overshare!" I do, but it's not generally about feelings.  This week during therapy I was given an assignment to think about what my life would look like without OCD. My brain, functioning the way it does, decided to make it into a writing prompt.  Last week I talked about OCD and what it was like having it—I thought I did a good job of describing what it was like, exposing myself and my journey. But really what I was doing was giving everyone the likable authenticity of OCD. The bits that still make me feel like I'm being real, but instead I'm making it shiny for everyone so no one sees how bad it is.  This isn't that. “We have nothing to fear but fear itself.” –Franklin D. Roosevelt OCD is fear itself. At least, once it reveals itself—but by then it’s too late. OCD starts as gentle hands helping yo...

I want to start this out by saying that I’ll be talking about mental health issues brought on by the pandemic. If you’re uncomfortable reading or feel it might negatively affect you, I’d advise not reading.  “I’m just a little OCD.” “God, you’re so OCD!” Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder is an oft joked about disorder, but the reality of it is much worse. I’m not being hyperbolic when I say it feels like being in a torture chamber of my own making, my brain being an inescapable hellscape that’s unable to let go of its incessant need for things to be just so. My OCD, along with my dyslexia and ADD, are things you’ll often see me talk about on Twitter . I do talk about it on Instagram , but I just haven’t been on there long enough to really dive much into it.  So what exactly is OCD? OCD is an anxiety disorder that causes sufferers to do certain compulsions to relieve the aforementioned anxiety.  Like with dyslexia, there are plenty of different types, but a lot of times they ...